Well today I was listening to " turn to you - justin bieber " and it was dedicated to mothers day . And suddenly I got flash backs from my childhood . You know , it wasn't a really good memories . I mean it made me remember the times I was begging mom to not leave me . I don't mean that she's a bad mom or anything , she just couldn't keep living with a man who don't give her respect , but what amazed me is .. She stayed with me . She didnt say no. She wasn't selfish. I was five years old at the time & I didnt take it for granite but now, I kinda blame myself for keeping her here . Because I stopped her from living her life . She knew that I would think this way . She kept saying that I'm her life now . If she didn't live her life I would. If she didn't accomplish her dreams I should . So I guess I'm living her dreams now . But wow . Just little tears from a 5 year old girl can change a life . I imagine if she left me with dad .. I will hate her for the rest of my life I'm sure . Me and my brother are not very lucky because we didn't live our child hood . Well , hamdoullah anyway .
